life is lovely.

everything has been happening to fast these days.
i haven't been writing as much as i would have liked.
i've been thinking about it...i just haven't gone through with it.

big things have happened:
i got him.
i intend to keep him for as long as i possibly can/want.
i graduated high school.
i decided to hold on my college plans for a year.
i decided technical school couldn't possibly be as horrible as i imagine and i should seriously look into it.
i got a cat.
named her magdelyn.
i moved house.
lost most of my friends.
got closer to my sister.
decided my family isn't as bad as i've made them out to be.
learned i can't control everything and i have to try to be okay with that.
obsessions are always going to be a vice of mine and i desperately need to find a healthier way to allow them.
i can't fix my problems overnight and patience is something beautiful.
my temper is something i can't afford to let control me.
i understand now that their questions aren't always intended to hurt me.
i'm grateful for most everything i've done or been through.
i'm starting to become comfortable with it.
even if my faith waivers at times.
i love it.

be careful what you wish for.

cause you just might get it.

the waiting game

"i hate this part right here."

saturday may 16 2009
at roughly 5.00 p.m.
i got what i wanted



you're my perfect little punching bag

more than me

I be fully educated
Not the one to play with
And i find that some of y'all hate it
But you wanna know baby
Who am i?
I be fully educated
Not the one to play with
And i find that some of y'all hate it
But you wanna know baby
Who am i?